#1
A lot.
#2
Dr. KMK did not actually do any teaching for us last Friday during his clinic. But amazingly, we learned A LOT from him. How come eh? Inilah yg dinamakan Dakwah bil hal. Dakwah dgn perbuatan, dgn akhlaq yg baik. Ia jauh lebih memberikan kesan berbanding kata-kata semata. Sebab tu sbg Dr nanti, akhlaq kita, tutur kata kita, cara kita bawak diri, cara kita berkomunikasi dgn org lain, dgn colleague kita, dgn staff nurse, dgn patient sendiri, yang tua dan yang muda, yang miskin dan yang berada.. kalau kita buat semuanya dgn akhlaq Islami, berpandukan Kitab Suci dan Sunnah Nabi, semuanya akan menjadi teladan yg baik utk dicontohi..
Dan "Bila seseorang menerima hidayah dari Allah SWT disebabkan kamu, nescaya hal itu lebih baik dari unta yang berwarna merah,” (HR Al-Bukhari dan Muslim). Rasulullah SAW menyebut unta merah, sebab unta merah adalah unta yang paling baik masa tu. Mungkin mcm ferrari merah la kot skrg ni. I dunno lah keta-keta ni.
#3
Mak patient yg colour blind tu ckp, “I know it can’t be rectified, I know it can’t be cured. But is there any way he could be helped? Any sort of enhancement or something?”
Silence. Utk seketika.
“Not at the moment, unfortunately”, Dr KMK jawab dgn penuh rasa empati, dgn nada suara yg berbau simpati. Dengan body language dan gaya tangan yg seolah turut sama mengerti. Tp kemudian disusuli pula dgn sesi motivasi. Yg sungguh menyentuh hati. Sehinggakan patient yg pd mulanya slightly depressed, (or rather his mom yg seemed more worried), akhirnya keluar dari bilik consultation dgn senyuman yg terukir di bibir.
They did not find any solution for the chief complaint of colour blindness. Nor did they gain any therapy that could correct this particular genetic defect. But what they received was a ‘therapy’ far more precious. The smile on their faces emerged as if their problem has been solved, as if the defect has been cured. Suatu kepuasan yg luar biasa setelah menerima kata-kata nasihat dan pemberi semangat dari seorang Dr. Kata-kata nasihat yg lahir dari pandangan positif seorang hamba Allah yg sentiasa husnuzzon dgn Tuhannya.
#4
Kadang-kadang juga, kita asyik je duk tengok org ni lebih kat sini, org tu pulak kelebihan dia mcm tu. Tp diri kita sendiri dilihat penuh kekurangan. Serba-serbi tak kena. Tapi kita lupa, Allah itu Maha Adil dan Saksama. Pastinya setiap insan akan punyai kekurangan dan kelebihan masing-masing. Kelebihan yg sudah tentu akan dipersoalkan kembali nanti, bagaimana ia digunakan dlm menunaikan hak Allah. Mungkin org ni kelebihan dia lukis kartun, mungkin org tu pulak kelebihan dia menulis. Org ni pandai masak. Org tu pulak pandai hias rumah. Org ni terer ingat Anatomy, org tu pulak hebat dlm Pharmaco. Org ni kalau exam medic mesti distinction, tp org tu pulak cepat hafaz ayat2 al-qur’an. Org ni maybe colour blind, tp VA 6/6 both eyes. Org tu pulak, walaupun tak colour blind tp VA 6/60. Sebagai contoh la.
Bila kita gagal utk melihat kelebihan diri kita sendiri, maka kita juga pasti akan gagal utk mensyukuri apa yang Allah bagi pd kita. Sebab kita tak mampu nak menilai nikmat pemberianNya.
But beware, in recognizing the gifts Allah has bestowed upon us, let it be just enough to make us count our blessings, and channel it to gain Allah’s pleasure, not too much of acknowledgement to let riya’ appear.
#5
Bagaimana sabarnya ibu bapa menjaga kita sejak kecil suatu ketika, begitu jualah sepatutnya kita layan mereka bila mereka sudah tua, bila dah ada cataract kat dua-dua belah mata, bila kaki mula menggigil2 kerana osteoarthritis kat lutut sini sana, bila jalan sgt lambat sebab cepat letih dan susah nak nyawa… Sebagaimana mereka mencuci dan menyalin lampin masa umur kita setahun dua, mampukah kita nanti melakukan perkara yang sama utk mereka?
Friday, November 13, 2009
An Experience as a 'Doctor' - The Story
"Dr siapa yang tengok ni tadi? Oh, Dr Farhanah!"
Gulp. Telan air liur. Selama ni kalau patients panggil Dr, boleh lagi ckp, “Makcik, sy student je, belum jadi Dr lagi,” sambil tersengih...
Tp, bila yg panggil tu adalah Specialist sendiri, maka terkedulah seketika… lebih-lebih lagi depan private patients, takkan nak sengih-sengih ckp “Eh sy student lagi…” Jadi, tidak dapat tidak, muka pun diusahakan utk di‘control’ supaya kelihatan seprofessional yg mungkin.
Saat tu, baru tersedar.. Seolah terkena renjatan elektrik. Tak lama lagi kita tak boleh dah berada di zon yg selesa. Tak lama lagi title DOCTOR tu bakal menggalaskan suatu tanggungjawab yg bukan sembarangan di atas bahu kita. Tanggungjawab yg melibatkan nyawa dan emosi manusia. Tanggungjawab yg sgt memerlukan keikhlasan, ketabahan, kekuatan, serta ketahanan mental, fizikal dan emosi yg kuat.
In the Ophthalmology Clinic...
My 1st 17-year-old male patient complained of colour blindness which he just started to notice a year ago. But he wasn’t really sure until his doubt was answered 2 months back during JPJ test when he faced difficulty in eliciting the numbers during colour vision test.
Dr. KMK first explained briefly regarding the pathophysiology of the condition. The cells are there, but for some unknown reason, they are not functioning. But the cells are present.
The patient however, wanted to become a pilot. But because of the strict colour codings used for pilots in landing planes especially, it was not a safe choice.
So, Dr counseled both the patient and his mother on the choices he could alternatively take in pursuing his dreams.
"This colour blindness should not stop you from achieving what you dream of, from doing what you want to do, or from being what you want to be. There are however certain fields in which colour-coded instructions may cause you slight difficulties, and may even be harmful to you. But there are sooo many other courses and paths you probably have never even thought of.
Remember, this is not the end for you. But this is the beginning for you to open up your heart for a wider range of choices, opportunities which are perhaps better than what you initially targeted for. There’s a better fate out there which Allah has destined for you, and He thus made this colour blindness as a turning point to diverge you to achieve the path which He has chosen for you, the choice which He knows is best for you…Believe me, you are going towards something better. You just need to look at it positively"
Sang ibu dan anak mengangguk-angguk. Mungkin terkejut dan kagum dgn kebolehan Dr utk memberi motivasi yg begitu mengesankan.. Bukan patient je yg terkesan, 'Dr.Farhanah' yg tengah diri kat tepi tu pun sama-sama terkesima jugak.
Betul ckp Dr kan. Kadang-kadang kita tak dpt pilihan yg kita nak. Tp rupa-rupanya, Allah dah sediakan sesuatu yg jauh lebih baik utk kita, sebab sebagai Pencipta, tentulah Dia yg Maha Tahu what’s best for His creations. Mungkin kita suka sangat kat seseorang ni, tengok agama dia baik, keturunan dia baik, family dia baik.. Tapi sayangnya dia dah berpunya. Aduh, kecewa di hati hanya Allah yang memahami. Tapi kita tak tahu. Jodoh kita rupanya seseorg yg lebih baik dan lebih sesuai utk kita. Malah, dialah yg terbaik yg Allah dah taqdirkan utk kita. Sebab mcmana baik pun seseorang itu, tak semestinya yg terbaik utk kita, kan?
Aduh, ni contoh yg sangat jauh menyimpang dari tajuk sebenar ni.
Masa Dr ckp mcm tu, berkobar-kobar rasa. Kalaulah satu hari nanti dpt jumpa ubat atau solution yg boleh ‘menghidupkan’ atau membangunkan cone cells kat retina yg mungkin sedang tidur atau tak aktif, dan boleh solve the problem of people with colour blindness, kan best. Mungkin boleh guna genetic engineering and correct the defect at the molecular level, sebab dia genetic kan. Wah, tingginya cita-cita kan.
Tapi, bermimpi itu tak salah. Never stop dreaming, but you must also work for it. Pemikiran yang besar melahirkan cita-cita yang besar. Dan cita-cita besar bisa melahirkan semangat dan tindakan yang luarbiasa besar!
Gulp. Telan air liur. Selama ni kalau patients panggil Dr, boleh lagi ckp, “Makcik, sy student je, belum jadi Dr lagi,” sambil tersengih...
Tp, bila yg panggil tu adalah Specialist sendiri, maka terkedulah seketika… lebih-lebih lagi depan private patients, takkan nak sengih-sengih ckp “Eh sy student lagi…” Jadi, tidak dapat tidak, muka pun diusahakan utk di‘control’ supaya kelihatan seprofessional yg mungkin.
Saat tu, baru tersedar.. Seolah terkena renjatan elektrik. Tak lama lagi kita tak boleh dah berada di zon yg selesa. Tak lama lagi title DOCTOR tu bakal menggalaskan suatu tanggungjawab yg bukan sembarangan di atas bahu kita. Tanggungjawab yg melibatkan nyawa dan emosi manusia. Tanggungjawab yg sgt memerlukan keikhlasan, ketabahan, kekuatan, serta ketahanan mental, fizikal dan emosi yg kuat.
In the Ophthalmology Clinic...
My 1st 17-year-old male patient complained of colour blindness which he just started to notice a year ago. But he wasn’t really sure until his doubt was answered 2 months back during JPJ test when he faced difficulty in eliciting the numbers during colour vision test.
Dr. KMK first explained briefly regarding the pathophysiology of the condition. The cells are there, but for some unknown reason, they are not functioning. But the cells are present.
The patient however, wanted to become a pilot. But because of the strict colour codings used for pilots in landing planes especially, it was not a safe choice.
So, Dr counseled both the patient and his mother on the choices he could alternatively take in pursuing his dreams.
"This colour blindness should not stop you from achieving what you dream of, from doing what you want to do, or from being what you want to be. There are however certain fields in which colour-coded instructions may cause you slight difficulties, and may even be harmful to you. But there are sooo many other courses and paths you probably have never even thought of.
Remember, this is not the end for you. But this is the beginning for you to open up your heart for a wider range of choices, opportunities which are perhaps better than what you initially targeted for. There’s a better fate out there which Allah has destined for you, and He thus made this colour blindness as a turning point to diverge you to achieve the path which He has chosen for you, the choice which He knows is best for you…Believe me, you are going towards something better. You just need to look at it positively"
Sang ibu dan anak mengangguk-angguk. Mungkin terkejut dan kagum dgn kebolehan Dr utk memberi motivasi yg begitu mengesankan.. Bukan patient je yg terkesan, 'Dr.Farhanah' yg tengah diri kat tepi tu pun sama-sama terkesima jugak.
Betul ckp Dr kan. Kadang-kadang kita tak dpt pilihan yg kita nak. Tp rupa-rupanya, Allah dah sediakan sesuatu yg jauh lebih baik utk kita, sebab sebagai Pencipta, tentulah Dia yg Maha Tahu what’s best for His creations. Mungkin kita suka sangat kat seseorang ni, tengok agama dia baik, keturunan dia baik, family dia baik.. Tapi sayangnya dia dah berpunya. Aduh, kecewa di hati hanya Allah yang memahami. Tapi kita tak tahu. Jodoh kita rupanya seseorg yg lebih baik dan lebih sesuai utk kita. Malah, dialah yg terbaik yg Allah dah taqdirkan utk kita. Sebab mcmana baik pun seseorang itu, tak semestinya yg terbaik utk kita, kan?
Aduh, ni contoh yg sangat jauh menyimpang dari tajuk sebenar ni.
Masa Dr ckp mcm tu, berkobar-kobar rasa. Kalaulah satu hari nanti dpt jumpa ubat atau solution yg boleh ‘menghidupkan’ atau membangunkan cone cells kat retina yg mungkin sedang tidur atau tak aktif, dan boleh solve the problem of people with colour blindness, kan best. Mungkin boleh guna genetic engineering and correct the defect at the molecular level, sebab dia genetic kan. Wah, tingginya cita-cita kan.
Tapi, bermimpi itu tak salah. Never stop dreaming, but you must also work for it. Pemikiran yang besar melahirkan cita-cita yang besar. Dan cita-cita besar bisa melahirkan semangat dan tindakan yang luarbiasa besar!
Friday, November 6, 2009
Diary of Serdang FORENSIC Graduates - The Lessons
Above all, what I learned from Forensics, especially in Serdang…
Lesson #1
You need not be a fierce, arrogant, egoistic, bigheaded person swollen with pride to be called a BOSS. You need not humiliate, underestimate, degrade, put down or disgrace everyone else around you to become a LEADER. You need not yell, shout or ‘bark’ at those working under your supervision once you become a PROFESSOR or a CONSULTANT. You can still be humble, nice, friendly, soft-spoken, and you can even drink and make jokes with your fellow colleagues, but still be a respected, appreciated, well-loved, BIG BOSS.
Lesson #2
Allah can take our lives anytime, anywhere, without any warning, without any sign. He has innumerable ways of ending the lives of His slaves. One minute you may be well and healthy, driving your car to a friend’s place, or back from your college.. The next thing you know, you are already in a different world altogether, a ‘world’ with no means of turning back. No more chance to perform taubat, ibadah, or good deeds as much as you possibly can. No more opportunity to apologize to the people whom you are guilty towards. No longer able to settle unpaid debts, no more chance to repent over the countless mistakes and sins you may have repeatedly done. We do not know the manner of our death, dan di bumi mana kita akan mati. We can only pray that Allah will grant us with husnul Khatimah, while trying our best to achieve it, insyaALLAH..
Lesson #3
Suicidal attempts are quite common rupanya, we had 3 suicidal cases in a week. 2 of them were Chinese, another was Malay, but schizophrenic. Any form of depression, stress or sorrow, if we do not return and humble ourselves to our Creator and seek for help and solution from Him, anyone can end up taking his or her own life to leave the world and the problems in it behind. Tp kita sebagai org Islam, kita kan ada Allah, and the simplest way to put it, like they say, a man who kneels in front of Allah and gantungkan segala harapan kpd Dia, can stand up in front of anything… Instead of saying "Oh Allah, I have a big problem", why not we say "Oh big problem, I have Allah".. Apa2 pun yang terjadi, gembira atau sedih, musibah atau nikmat, kembalilah pada Allah…
Lesson #4
Most of the suicidal and murder cases, were believed to have a relation with WOMEN based on the suggestive histories. Even the 1st murder case ever recorded in this world, Qabil who killed Habil, was also due to women factor. Rasulullah S.A.W. pun pernah bersabda, "Tidaklah aku tinggalkan fitnah yang lebih besar bagi kaum lelaki melebihi fitnah wanita” (HR Bukhari dan Muslim). Lelaki, berhati-hatilah. Wanita, usahalah dan jagalah diri, jangan sampai diri kita menjadi fitnah buat mereka…
Lesson #5
I heard before, the concept of tawakkal can be likened to a mayat yg dimandikan oleh pengurus jenazah, the body is incapable of doing anything, hanya berserah bulat2 pada si pemandi mayat… Amru Khalid ckp salah satu anologi tawakkal ibarat kepasrahan hati di hadapan Allah sebagaimana pasrahnya mayat di hadapan org yg memandikannya. Macamana org yg memandikan mayat membolak-balik tubut mayat seenaknya. Begitulah kita katakan pd Allah, "Ya Allah, lakukanlah semua yg Kau kehendaki, aku pasrah dan redha dgn apa yang Kau lakukan terhadapku, aku bertawakkal padaMu, kerana aku yakin Kau tidak akan sesekali menjerumuskanku menuju kemudharatan".. Tapi tak bermakna kita tak perlu usaha, ya..
Lesson #6
Bila tengok mayat, terdetik dalam hati, “Wahai arwah, aku jua insyaAllah akan menyusulmu suatu hari nanti…”
Lesson #1
You need not be a fierce, arrogant, egoistic, bigheaded person swollen with pride to be called a BOSS. You need not humiliate, underestimate, degrade, put down or disgrace everyone else around you to become a LEADER. You need not yell, shout or ‘bark’ at those working under your supervision once you become a PROFESSOR or a CONSULTANT. You can still be humble, nice, friendly, soft-spoken, and you can even drink and make jokes with your fellow colleagues, but still be a respected, appreciated, well-loved, BIG BOSS.
Lesson #2
Allah can take our lives anytime, anywhere, without any warning, without any sign. He has innumerable ways of ending the lives of His slaves. One minute you may be well and healthy, driving your car to a friend’s place, or back from your college.. The next thing you know, you are already in a different world altogether, a ‘world’ with no means of turning back. No more chance to perform taubat, ibadah, or good deeds as much as you possibly can. No more opportunity to apologize to the people whom you are guilty towards. No longer able to settle unpaid debts, no more chance to repent over the countless mistakes and sins you may have repeatedly done. We do not know the manner of our death, dan di bumi mana kita akan mati. We can only pray that Allah will grant us with husnul Khatimah, while trying our best to achieve it, insyaALLAH..
Lesson #3
Suicidal attempts are quite common rupanya, we had 3 suicidal cases in a week. 2 of them were Chinese, another was Malay, but schizophrenic. Any form of depression, stress or sorrow, if we do not return and humble ourselves to our Creator and seek for help and solution from Him, anyone can end up taking his or her own life to leave the world and the problems in it behind. Tp kita sebagai org Islam, kita kan ada Allah, and the simplest way to put it, like they say, a man who kneels in front of Allah and gantungkan segala harapan kpd Dia, can stand up in front of anything… Instead of saying "Oh Allah, I have a big problem", why not we say "Oh big problem, I have Allah".. Apa2 pun yang terjadi, gembira atau sedih, musibah atau nikmat, kembalilah pada Allah…
Lesson #4
Most of the suicidal and murder cases, were believed to have a relation with WOMEN based on the suggestive histories. Even the 1st murder case ever recorded in this world, Qabil who killed Habil, was also due to women factor. Rasulullah S.A.W. pun pernah bersabda, "Tidaklah aku tinggalkan fitnah yang lebih besar bagi kaum lelaki melebihi fitnah wanita” (HR Bukhari dan Muslim). Lelaki, berhati-hatilah. Wanita, usahalah dan jagalah diri, jangan sampai diri kita menjadi fitnah buat mereka…
Lesson #5
I heard before, the concept of tawakkal can be likened to a mayat yg dimandikan oleh pengurus jenazah, the body is incapable of doing anything, hanya berserah bulat2 pada si pemandi mayat… Amru Khalid ckp salah satu anologi tawakkal ibarat kepasrahan hati di hadapan Allah sebagaimana pasrahnya mayat di hadapan org yg memandikannya. Macamana org yg memandikan mayat membolak-balik tubut mayat seenaknya. Begitulah kita katakan pd Allah, "Ya Allah, lakukanlah semua yg Kau kehendaki, aku pasrah dan redha dgn apa yang Kau lakukan terhadapku, aku bertawakkal padaMu, kerana aku yakin Kau tidak akan sesekali menjerumuskanku menuju kemudharatan".. Tapi tak bermakna kita tak perlu usaha, ya..
Lesson #6
Bila tengok mayat, terdetik dalam hati, “Wahai arwah, aku jua insyaAllah akan menyusulmu suatu hari nanti…”
Diary of Serdang FORENSIC Graduates - The Narration
A week in Forensic Department, Hospital SERDANG was like a week in Orthopaedics, in a sense that we had to attend seminars, lectures, case presentations/department CME, hospital CME, and at the same time assist autopsies, prepare for our own CME presentation, and finish a report by Friday which was like a case write-up.
But the best thing was, all the staffs, from the PPK to the ‘small’ big boss, were all very very friendly, down to earth, funny, cooperative, and everyone was willing to teach and share their knowledge.. They spoke and borak2 to us as if we were their staffs and kids yg dah kenal sejak sekian lama, and they all regarded us as their fellow colleagues who are therefore permitted to use some but not all of the basic facilities, and... obliged to treat them makan-makan at the end of the week!
We were given a new logbook, not for RM3 but for free, and the rule was simple. Each student had to observe 10 cases, and perform/assist at least 2.
So, we divided ourselves into pairs, so that each group will have the chance to assist. On the very 1st day, the ‘breathtaking’ experience started. Wah, breathtaking indeed. Sampai tak bernafas dalam autopsy room tu. Yelah, 1st timers kan. In the morning of our 1st day, we had the 'joy' of observing 2 cases after our brief orientation by MA Hairi.. And in the afternoon, dah takde observe2 dah. Wear your gowns and assist!
Each case had its own storyline and history. Histories which I’m not sure if I should reveal. Looking at death notes left before suicidal attempts, the cries of their grief-stricken family members, the ways or methods they had chosen to end their own life, the faces of shocked relatives during pengecaman mayat… All seemed to be like a drama in front of us. But we were quickly reminded, it was real. We dealt with police and investigative officers for the 1st time.
Alhamdulillah, by Allah’s will, we had the chance to encounter a variety of manners and causes of death. From natural causes, to suicide, murder, and accidents. We also had a lecture on Gunshot injury by Prof Karim with special police guests to demonstrate on weapons.
Friday, September 11, 2009
Imagine this happening to you
This is a true story which occurred to one of the patients in 5B, with a modified version.
Imagine this happening to you.
You are a newly married couple. You and your husband love each other sooo soo much. During your unforgettable honeymoon however, you met with an accident and you escaped the trauma uninjured. However, your beloved husband whom you love with all your heart, sustained a burst fracture of one of his cervical vertebrae with complete neurological deficit below the level of lesion. Unforgettable honeymoon indeed.
Neurological deficit by definition, does not only mean you have complete motor paralysis and total loss of sensation below the level of spinal cord injury, but remember you are also incapable of controlling your own bowel and urine output. And if the level is higher up you may not be able to breathe without the assistance of a ventilator, plus a lot more other complications, so depressing you would rather not think about it.
Imagine, just imagine! Should this tragedy truly happen to you, as the injured paralysed husband, or the depressed yet concerned wife, na’uzhbillah.
One minute you can walk, run, drive and do almost whatever you can possibly think of. But the next, in a split of a second, you cannot feel your 4 limbs at all, what more to be able to move them. You lie down static in spinal board, with a skull traction screwed in your head, you cannot move any parts of your body except your eyes and mouth. Worse off, you cannot even control the daily emptying of your own bladder and rectum. Some may not be able to swallow. One minute you are the breadwinner, the head of the family. The next, you are on diapers and someone has to wash you up every now and then. Or, in words which are less harsh, you become totally bedridden and completely dependant on others.
Benarlah, Allah Maha Kuasa dan berhak menarik kembali nikmat yang dipinjamkanNya pada sesiapa jua di kalangan hambaNya, pada bila-bila masa sahaja. Dan status sebagai seorang hamba, tentulah senantiasa layak diuji Pemiliknya!
Yes, some may find this narration familiar, kan? A ‘tragic honeymoon’ is what they name it. What happened to this particular patient however, is slightly different. It wasn’t a tragic honeymoon, and the wife is already pregnant with their first child, Alhamdulillah. However, all the other disabilities mentioned about the husband are real.
Imagine, and imagine again. This could happen to anyone.
From the Islamic viewpoint, of course Allah knows whoever amongst His slaves who are tested, must be capable of enduring that particular trial. For in a hadith narrated by Imam Tirmizhi and Ibnu Majah, it has been mentioned, “The people most (tested) on trials are the Anbiyaa’. Thereafter, those closest to them.” (verified as sahih by al-albani). A person would therefore be tested in conformity to his strength of iman. If he is firm in his Deen, his trials become more intensive.
But then again, if this happens to you…
If the injured party is the wife, I would be almost certain that the husband would gladly find another wife or wives, and at the same time, he may or may not keep taking care of the ill first wife…
But what if you are the wife? At first you may be grateful your husband’s life is spared. But after 4 or 5 years taking care of a completely paralysed husband, hmm… I keep thinking would I be able to be as strong as the patient’s wife if the same test falls upon me. You cannot marry another while still being a wife to someone. Let’s say you are still young… And your first (and probably last) honeymoon before the incident did not yield a pregnancy… So, would you think of…?
If you are the injured husband, would you let your wife go?
Of course, there is no definite answer. Because multiple factors deserve consideration. It sometimes strikes me why in the world would I spend time dwelling on others’ problem? But being a mere human, we have feelings. And there’s this thing called ‘heart’ in me, which becomes easily touched when seeing cases as such. Patients ask me all sorts of questions about their diseases or problems, but more often than not, it is me who learn from them.
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